Break Ups- The Getting Over It

Woop!
Sorry for the shortage of my sparkling wit recently.

I return from a while away with a slightly more sober topic. Break-ups

A few months back I suffered one myself, with a boy I thought was everything. Believe it or not I have little confidence, I am very self concious too. But this boy was someone so amazing that I let him see me in ways no-one else had, I told him everything, leaking out my very soul to this person who in relative time, was a very small part of my very long life (to come).
That boy changed me, I felt stronger, prettier. Every little atom on me vibrated with joy in his presense, I used to shake when we were kissing. I felt embarassed by my excitement, he thought it was cute.
The months we spent were not as turbulant as they could of been. We started with a messy start, unsure of our feelings and whether we knew each other properly.
Unfortunatly it met a messy end too. I cried, I was even sick. I walked for miles one my own, with a friend sometimes. But in my head nothing had changed.
I loved him, I loved him with all the fullness I could have in myself. My mother told me that when her father died he heart ached, it phsyically hurt. I felt that pain, I felt selfish for waste that pain on 'just-a-break-up'. If this was how I felt from loosing love, how would I feel from losing a person forever?

Months on, I still hurt. I still cry. I replay conversations, moments of us and my heart does a little jump. I see his face and a lump burns in my throat. Everyday I think of him at least once and everything reminds me of him.
Who knows how long it will take to forget him. My first love.

The only way to get over it...
is to cry it out, sob to your hearts content for as long as need be. Eat chocolate, dance, watch old movies. Wallow in your self-pity.
Then when you are all cried out GET UP! Get out! Meet friends and party so hard your head is still buzzing by tommorrow. Go for runs and get fit, live life hard.
Get a make-over and be as outrageous as you want. You are new, reborn and uncontrollable.
DO IT!

ladyoutspoken x